A Brief Update on My Life
Some things have changed since last spring/summer when I started this blog and wrote in it frequently. Some things have remained the same.
I am still engaged to Ashley, still no date set for the wedding. It's turning into one of those long indefinite engagements. I'm fine with this since I'm a lot more uneasy about marriage after all I've learned. Obviously, I proposed and we got engaged before I discovered the red pill. She hasn't really brought it up much, and I've said firmly that it wouldn't happen before my professional situation wasn't sorted out.
When I was writing before, I was still a student. Last spring I was going to class everyday, and many of my posts were reports on my flirtatious experiments with my female classmates and observation on their behavior. I have since finished my Master's degree. I'm currently looking for work in my field, but for the last few months I've not found any. I spent several months unemployed. Since February I've been finding work, although just temp work. Despite my degree, I've made money loading trucks, and I currently am substitute teaching in a high school.
With Ashley things are going pretty well. I still work on balancing alpha and beta behaviors. Overall I think I've changed a great deal. I'm a very different guy than I was 14 or 16 months ago. There are hundreds and hundreds of blog posts about all the different little tips and ideas and principles that will improve your interactions with women, but if I were to try to sum all of it up in like one or two sentences, the difference between me now and me back before the red pill is simply this: knowing what you want, being active and initiating things, and always standing up for yourself.
The old me didn't know what he wanted (other than sex more often). Now I know what I want. The old me was passive and reacted to others. Now I make plans, participate in different activities, and take the lead. The old me would always seek peace through apologizing and giving in to any and all demands. The new me has limits and stands up for himself, and only apologizes when he really fucks up.